Have you ever felt like you are as dumb as a box of rocks? I have really been feeling that way lately. I feel like in a rut. I can't learn anything because I am so busy trying to keep up in my classes... I feel like I am really not learning in my classes, rather I am just learning so I can pass the classes and get the "A" that I want. Honors finance, I actually learned in. My retention however is near to none. I want to learn other things but I dont have enough time or the resources to learn. How do so many people I know learn other languages and speak them... and I just have this "block" in my brain in which I cannot learn them. I cannot learn another language.. it is really impossible. Do you know how hard it is to not understand a language yet be in the middle of a million people speaking it? talk about cultural shock.. sometimes osmosis is the desire..but that is impossible..what do you do?

I do feel like I have a lot of knowledge about the bible.. thanks to my homeschooling background... but I dont hardly know all that I want to know.

Anyway I am just babbling... lately I have had just this desire to GET OUT... get out of orlando.. I just want to move.. relax... finish college.. start life... but I have to sit where I am right now and I do what I have been doing for the last 3 years... ok... I am tired... done writing.

Lindsey

Things have been sorta rough for me lately. Been in a lot of pain... my stomach has been hurting but I am really excited because I am going to start Smart for Life again today! yay! so I will be back on the health program until JAnuary area... it will get me back to my healthy self.. my more energetic self. :)

I really need to go rock climbing too.. I am having withdrawals.. lol.

Anyway, I have a marketing test today that I am sooo worried about! I have studied alot but still.. last time I felt prepared and I got an 88%. I am sorta worried about that...needless to say. Thursday I have an American Government test that I have studied for too.. and a quiz/homework assignment due on wednesday in finance.. that I DONT understand.. so after this test I have to prepare for that... I just keep going and going this week.. and it is sorta rough on me.

Last night was great though! I got to go to Texas de Brazil with Ivan.. It was a "date night" for us. Wow I don't think I have ever eaten that much... It was really good though! Such an interesting concept! I kept forgetting to turn my little thing over to red.. haha. It was just so much fun.. a great night! Then after, I got back to studying marketing... lol.

The weather has dropped in temperature lately... I love how cold it is.. but now it makes me want to be OUT of school for the semester.. if the weather keeps the way it is going .. I am NOT going in the fountain at Spirit splash.. lol. I want to go to the mountains soooooooooooo badly.. I am just dieing to go there. I am really praying for straight As this semester.. but it is killing me!

So two tests this week, and 2 tests next week.. Finance test.. (AH!) I want an A in that class but I might get an A-.. eesh. We will see.

Some interesting developments in my life lately... just goin along.. cant wait for this LOVELY christmas break!

Ok... I better listen in class now... im off

Sleep and security

So lately, I have been dealing with some stuff. I have still been unmotivated but the big thing is my inability to sleep. I dont know what is wrong but I get tired through the day and than at night, I wake up about a half hour after I go to bed and my body does not want to go to bed... it is jittery and my legs dont want to lie still. I have had this for the last 4 days and I really just want a good night sleep here... but it isnt happening. Tonight I thought was the night, because I was SOOO exhausted, but I just woke up... jittery.

I also need some prayer because my eating... I just cant seem to get it under control. I just cant eat healthy and I never want to go to the gym. Maybe that is what this jittery thing is.. maybe my legs just want to exercise. Maybe it is Gods way of getting me to the gym LOL.. I dont know.. too bad there is no gym open this late at night. haha.

I dont know really what God is doing in my life at this moment but it seems like I am working on the same things as ALWAYS, it is so hard. I sorta want to have time AFTER school work do do things I want to do. I think that is my motivation for getting the work done, because I spend time with God, and than I do my schoolwork.. and if I get all of the work done.. THEN I can spend even more time with God and play guitar and work on other things. This week is a week I really want to spend getting it all together. My verse for this last month has been " therefore whatever you eat or drink,. or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God -1 Cor. 10:31"..

I dont have much stress in my life but this sleep issue is really getting to me.. I sorta wonder what is going on. If I try to read or do something productive.. my mind is just moving too slow to do anything.. like my eyes start to burn when reading. But I guess like.. there is nothing I can do. Tomorrow I have a 7:30 class.. and if Id o fall asleep it will prolly be around 5:30 ... the time I need to wake up..

I think it is time right now to just open my Bible... :) it will be good times.. Even in times of "weird aches and pains"... I can still praise God because He has done some amazing and marvelous things in my life! He is so worty of praise.. and He knows every insecurity I have. How weak I can be when I am insecure.. always forgetting that I am secure in Him and that everything I have is from Him.. even sleep.

Linz

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Lindsey Johns

Lately life has been very interesting for me. I would say that the school side of my life has been stressful. I am busy preparing for 2 tests that are coming up on Wednesday. I  truly hope that I will be able to get good grades in both of them. My "regular" life has been really great... lately I have been able to spend a lot of time with Ivan. We went home to visit my parents this weekend and that was great. I think it was a good experience... even though we didnt get as much studying done as we had planned. I bought his b-day present for him while I was down there.. I got him a guitar and he seems to love it .. so I am so glad about that! i know it is like a week early.. but I had a store down in Palm Beach that i was familiar with and I wanted to let him try them and all. He will definitely surpass me in guitar playing abilities.. because i dont practice.. I dont have time to lol.

Now I am in this long stretch to my test.. trying to prepare and everything. Also, I have to try to get to the gym soon because of the fact that I have been gaining weight.. STILL.. mainly because I cant stop eating.. but I need the gym for energy. Everytime I do something like workout.. I alwasy feel better afterward. Therefore... I need to do that more frequently. I also feel like I havent spent a lot of time just alone with God. i have made sure that I am still in prayer about stuff... at least morning and night.. but I just have been so busy and stressed.. i dont get to often.

I really want to write something here soon about some things I have been learning.. but that will come along when I am NOT at work and after I am done with these tests.. ok.

Linz